My name is Thomas Harold Edelson. Welcome to my journal.
To repeat the most important sentence from my profile:
Spiritually, I am some combination of Quaker, Taoist, and pagan.
My name is Thomas Harold Edelson. Welcome to my journal.
To repeat the most important sentence from my profile:
Spiritually, I am some combination of Quaker, Taoist, and pagan.
There's this funny little man who lives inside my head who's always asking me questions. Recently, he asked me one which was tangentially related to my most recent journal entry.
Q: So, you've been having some trouble getting an appointment with a psychiatrist. But why did your doctor refer you to one in the first place?
A: Because I asked him to.
Q: Uh-huh. And why'd you do that, Tom?
A: I've been having some short-term memory issues Like, I go upstairs to get something, and by the time I get there, I've forgotten what the something was.
(That's not entirely a bad thing, of course. I get more exercise that way.)
But it's still, on the whole, a pain in the butt, given that it's been happening more and more often.
Q: You have my sympathy. But you still haven't said why you wanted to see a psychiatrist.
A: Um, I sorta thought that was obvious. I thought maybe a change of medication would help with the memory problems.
He didn't have any more questions, so I guess I'll post this, and go on to the next item on my to-do list.
If only I could remember what that was.
I consider myself to be a victim of something I shall call "psychiatric extortion".
Side remark: I guess that opening line, read without context, would qualify as the exact opposite of clickbait.
Rather than trying to define the term, I shall simply describe the example.
Background: I am already seeing a psychotherapist. My primary care physician referred me to a psychiatrist for consultation about medication.
A couple of weeks later, I received a phone call from someone representing a psychiatric practice. (A group practice, I presume.) The important part of the interaction was roughly as follows:
She: We have a therapy requirement. You have to have ten sessions with one of our therapists.
I: I'm already seeing a therapist. Perhaps y'all can coordinate with him, instead?
She: No. It has to be one of ours. (She didn't actually say "It's our policy," but she might as well have done.)
I: made some semi-articulate noises about not being happy about such a requirement.
She: Okay, we'll let your primary care practice know that they'll need to refer you to someone else.
End of conversation. I would welcome any questions or comments you may have.
So far, I have watched not quite half of "Bohemian Rhapsody," the recent film with a central character named "Freddie Mercury." The idea of finishing the thing fills me with revulsion, so I probably won't.
Yes, I am aware that "Freddie Mercury" is also the name of a real person, one with some biographical details similar to the one in the movie. I don't know, however, whether this Freddiethe one played, here, by Rami Malekactually resembles the real one, in any fundamental way. And I don't care; the reactions I am expressing are to "movie Freddie" ("MF", for short.)
I think MF is a disgusting human being.
One might jump to the conclusion that I am being homophobic. But I don't think I am.
How do I defend myself against this charge? Like this:
The character of MF does, in some ways, match one stereotype of gay men. But that's not a full description of his personality. He has some additional traits that are not part of the stereotype. Most notably, he's a malignant narcissist.
Think: one part flamboyantly gay, one part Donald Trump. It's the combination of the two that I really don't like or at least, I can't stand the idea of subjecting myself to any more of a movie centered on him.
Do remember, though, that I feel this way only about "movie Freddie," and not (so far as I know) about the real Freddie Mercury. And not, I hope it goes without saying, about Rami Malek, either.
In my most recent journal entry, I said that I would draft a resignation speech for president Trump.
I haven't done that, and I'm not going to. Why not?
I wasn't planning on a parody. I thought I could come up with something plausible. I even had an idea in mind of what that would be.
And now a second disappointment: not only am I not going to draft the speech, I'm also not going to tell you what the idea was. Frankly, I now think it was embarrassingly naive.
I regret any inconvenience that this may cause.
What to do next? It's not that I don't have ideas; I have plenty of those. But sometimes I get stuck in a seemingly endless loop, trying to choose among them.
So I should pick one, without worrying about whether it's the best possible choice, and just go with it.
Okay, I choose: "Figure out how we, the American people, can get Donald Trump out of office." (Ruled ineligible as an answer, for obvious reasons: "Wait until his term expires.")
How about this, then: "Persuade him to resign."
I know, I know: the first thing you think is that this answer, also, should be thrown out at once. Although for a different reason. You agree that if he resigns, that counts as a way of getting him out of office. But "getting him to resign" is, itself, simply not gonna happn.
You certainly could be right about that, but let's not give up so easily. Let's give serious consideration to the question: "Is there a way that Donald Trump could be persuaded to resign?" (And no, I'm not talking about threats.)
Instead, try this: draft an announcement of his resignation, designed for him to read on television. Make it so that when he looks at the proposed wording, he says to himself:
You know, with this kind of wind behind my back, I'll really be going out on top! Much better than hanging around the dingy old White House, and putting up with all the bullshit.
I'll whip up a first draft, and post it in my next journal entry. Then y'all can let me know whether you think it might fly.
Back on February 28, I posted, in "Talk Politics", with the subject line Global Mourning. I have come to realize that some of what I said there was prone to misunderstanding because I think that at least one person did misunderstand it.
I said that my mood, in regard to Donald Trump's War, had shifted from anger to grief. I did already, right there in the text, warn against one possible misunderstanding: while my mood (when thinking about the war) had changed, my judgment on it had not. Though I was feeling grief more than the earlier anger, I still disapproved of Trump's having started the war, as much as I ever did. (And still do now, if not more so.)
In short, feelings and judgments are not the same thing.
Now I want to add: the shift in feelings is, itself, not necessarily permanent. One can shift from grief back to anger, and then back to grief again, while one's judgment remains unchanged all the while.
In fact, I have made that shift in the interim, several times. I have thought up, and written down, some allegedly clever things on the subject that were prompted largely by anger. (But I have not, as yet, seen fit to post them publicly.)
While I'm on the subject, I might as well add: anger and grief are by no means a complete list of the emotions that one might feel, and I have felt, in response to this disastrous war. There's also depression, for one.
And fear! I was astounded when I realized that I'd left that one out!
As you probably know, yesterdaySaturday, February 28the United States and Israel commenced a war against Iran, with one of the stated objectives being to overthrow the government of that country.
And I posted something about it yesterday, too … but not here in my own journal; it's in the community journal called "talk politics". It has the subject line "global mourning", and you can find it here:
My last few journal entries have been about the adventures of the current US president. For a change of pace, here's something about nice people.
It's three pages and a bit, and you will find it here:
Kindness Without Religious Faith
Religious faith, or its absence, is a stage-setting device. The core subject is kindness, itself.
We are introduced to a young fella who has grown up to be a genuinely nice, kind person. One day, he suddenly finds himself baffled by the question: "Why am I kind?
Don't expect a definitive answer about him, nor about kind people in general. I'll be happy if it gets you thinking about the question.
I refer you back to my Dreamwidth journal entry of January 8, which has the subject line Should the USA invade Greenland?
Full credit for the humorous wording belongs to late night television host Stephen Colbert. My quotation from one of his monologues ends with "They're insane!", where "they" appears to refer to the people of the United States. Since Colbert is a US American himself, as am I, this statement may raise some eyebrows: does he, and do I, actually regard our own country, taken as a whole, as insane?
I don't. It's a great line in the Late Show context, and I am not criticizing Colbert for using it, but if you take it seriously and literally …
Based strictly on newsworthy recent events in our country, I can think of one individual who is far more clearly qualified to be called insane than is the average American. That would be our president.
During the first week of 2026, Denmark’s prime minister warned that an American attack on Greenland would cause the end of NATO. She may very well have been correct.
Of course, I hope we never find out: I hope that our government never actually does anything so insane.
But is that what would happen, in the event of such a blunder? It certainly might, as I said, but I think it’s unnecessarily pessimistic to regard it as certain. There’s at least one other possible outcome, and I think it would be a better one:
The rest of NATO could expel the United States from the organization.
Or, if that’s not technically feasible, and NATO, as such, has to be dissolved, then the civilized countries among its former members could form a new organization, identical in its basic purpose, with a different name.
Okay, the topic title is clickbait. Like, I make it sound like I think that this is a serious question, open for debate on the pros and cons. I don't. Stephen Colbert put it in perspective. This is an approximation of what he said: The NATO charter clearly says that any attack on a NATO member shall be treated, by all members, as an attack against all. So that means that, if we attack Greenland, we'll be obligated to go to war against ... ourselves! Gee, that's scary. You really don't want to go to war with the United States. They're insane!
I won't be able to leave the United States before Donald Trump is sworn in (groan, again) as president. But I am taking concrete steps toward moving to some friendlier nation.
I have identified a top candidate destination, but I am not going to tell the world what it is, yet. Better to wait until I know that I'll actually be able to go there.
It's a maddeningly slow process, the more so because I am also mildly under the weather. I remain reasonably confident that I will be able to make it out before it's too late.
This journal entry is not about Thanksgiving Day.
Then what?
This entry will be my [initial] response [first in this journal, anyway] to the fact that Donald Trump will be inaugurated, on 2025-01-20 [and for the second time], as President of the United States.
My first, instinctive response to that fact: It sucks.
No second thoughts about that! But I do want to add more nuance: to name several different feelings that this catastrophic event has evoked in me.
The determination was triggered as I began to get serious with the question, What shall I actually do about this [insert impolite word]? It tends to counteract what's left of the depression.
I have made real progress toward answering the What shall I do?question. But nothing ready to be posted in this journal, yet.
"How to Decide What to Do" is the title of a recently-added page
of my “site” at The Well, located
at
https://people.well.com/user/edelsont/philosophy/01-intro.html
All that's there, so far, is the “Introduction”
… which is full of promises of what is to come.
I have unexpectedly developed a case of writer's block: I
haven't written even a line, yet, of the (or any) following
segment.
I do have a possible inkling as to why. I was operating
under an assumption about what writing this “book” would
entail. To wit, that it would require me to be completely
“open” about my inner, emotional life: to be prepared to
lay bare any relevant detail about my fears, desires, or any sort
of feelings.
And I didn't feel able (or, perhaps more accurately, willing)
to do that. I still don't.
However, this doesn't necessarily mean that the project is
doomed. I have a faint glimmering of an approach that would
allow me to write the thing, without doing the [emotional] Full
Monty to quite that degree.
It would not be exactly the same book, but I think maybe I could
accomplish my central goal. I guess you — and I!
— will have to wait and see whether this works out.
I apologize for any inconvenience that this may cause.
My last posting was about my falling down. This one is
about another kind of opportunity for spiritual growth: let's watch
a video, and then discuss it, right here in the comments to this
journal entry.
First of all, the video. Here's the link which will let
you watch it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQqY5LsGee8
The title of the video is:
Sece Foster: How To Drop In To Presence and Stay
Heart-Centered
… and it's from a YouTube channel called “The Power of
Attunement.”
Thanks to Beckie for sending me the link in the first
place. I seized upon it as a great discussion starter.
The next move is yours. Take a look at the video, and
then tell us what it brings to mind for you.