The last three entries in this journal, like this one, all had subject
lines beginning with "Impeachment: Why Not?" None of them,
however, was about reasons not to impeach President Trump.
Instead, they were about reasons why one might not choose to spend
time, in the current situation, promoting the impeachment of President
Trump. See the difference?
The same is true of this one, except for one thing. This isn't
about why "one" might not "choose to spend time ... promoting the
impeachment of President Trump." This is more specific: not why
"one" might not, but why I, personally, might not choose to keep on
spending time on this. (In fact, the chances are that, in the
near future, I won't.) There's more than one such personal
reason, but, to a first approximation, they all boil down to one
thing.
Reason Four: I Don't Want To
Okay, why don't I want to?
For one thing, I've developed a real craving to spend some time on
things that have nothing to do with politics. Computer
programming, for instance. It would be such a relief to take a
break from worrying about mushy things like how to persuade someone of
something. With programming, it's much more straightforward: you
write the program, you run it, and it either works or it doesn't.
And besides that, even when it is about politics -- even when it is
about dealing with the nightmare that is the Trump presidency -- I'm
not that sure that working for impeachment is the only way to
go. I can't shake the feeling that maybe what I, personally,
really need to do is to move to Canada. I'm not 100% sure about
that, but I've reached the point where I am sure that I need
to devote some serious time and energy to exploring that possibility
more deeply.
At this point, my divided self manifests again. To say such
things, even in my head, provokes an angry response from another part
of my mind. It's a little like the argument I had with the lady
in the peanut gallery, back in the entry headed
"Impeachment: Are
We There Yet?" But this time, I will make it more obvious
that I am arguing with myself, by presenting it as a dialogue between
two "sides": the prosecution and the defense.
Prosecution: I am shocked -- shocked! -- that you would even consider
such a selfish response. You want to go off and write computer
programs? Isn't that a lot like fiddling while Rome burns?
And as for moving to Canada, that may be even worse. You'd
really save your own sorry butt, without a thought for the poor souls
left behind? I thought you were better than that.
Defense: That seems a little harsh. With regard to the computer
programming and other such alternate activities: when you have a big
long-term project, sometimes you just need to take a break and do
something else for a while. It will probably benefit the
project, in the long run, because you will come back to it fresher.
But more fundamentally, I'm not sure that this impeachment process is
meant to be my project ... any more, at least. Maybe
I've already done the part of it that I'm even minimally qualified to
do.
I can convince myself that there are good grounds for
impeachment, in principle, based on what we already know, and on my
own understanding of the Constitution. But I already noted, back
under "Impeachment:
Why Not? (Reason 2)," that I am likely not the best person to
convince others of this, if only because I am not a lawyer.
Besides, the question before us is not merely whether impeachment is
justified, "in principle." It's whether we should be throwing
our efforts into making impeachment (and removal from office) actually
happen. And even if you assume that we could succeed in that --
maybe after the midterm elections? -- are we sure that it would be the
best thing for the country? (Assuming, again, that the grounds
for impeachment are "just" the things we already know: that Trump
hasn't, in the interim, made a blatant grab for dictatorial
power. If he does, that will change things.)
Because speaking for myself, I am not convinced, at least not yet
(that removing Trump from office, before the end of his first term,
and absent the "smoking gun," would be the best thing for the
country). I am not, however, aiming to start a discussion of
whether it would be. My point is simply that I don't feel like
I'm the best qualified person to render an opinion on this.
In fact, I am sure that I am not qualified -- let alone the "best"
qualified -- to render such an opinion. Not at the moment, at
least. I am sure of this because I find that I don't even have
an opinion on it ... not one that I'd feel comfortable sharing.
Perhaps I could develop one, in time. But that's just
"perhaps." And, even if you assume that I could, I have no idea
how long that would take. I am almost sure that the only way I
could do it, with real confidence in the result, would be ... wait for
it ... first to clear my mind by taking a break from struggling with
these issues, and, yes, to spend some time writing computer programs
or something.
Prosecution: Unbelievable. You are such a wimp (even if I, being
you, say so myself). Do you think that this is some sort of
game? The fate of the world may, quite literally, be at stake.
And you seem to be assuming that you can just take a pass, and someone
else will take care of it. But maybe you are the only one who
can! Maybe you are the one person who can think this through
deeply enough, and find the right words to explain your conclusion, so
that any rational person can read, and learn the truth.
Mind you, I can't prove that you are "the one." But with so much
at stake, since you can't prove that you're not the one
person who can do it, aren't you obligated to try, whether you "want
to" or not?
Defense: Got you, you self-righteous son of a bitch! You fell
right into my trap.
Prosecution: Huh? What trap?
Defense: Let's grant you, "for the sake of the argument" (as we
philosophers like to say), that you could get me, with continued
liberal application of the whip, to write something that was
... acceptable. Something that got the job done: that showed us
all the safest way to get out of the Trump mess.
Except that in the real world, we'd never be really sure how much the
outcome had been influenced by this thing I wrote. Nor would we
really know whether someone else could have written it, and maybe
would have, if I had not.
But never mind that. Here's something you can take to the
bank. If I actually did write something that was even
potentially that important, then, before I finished it, I'd have at
least half convinced myself that I actually was the only person who
could have written it. I know this for a fact, because it's
happening to me right now. And you know it too, because I'm you.
Prosecution: Yadda yadda. What's all this about a trap?
Defense: You're going to have to put some big boy pants on, and be
patient. I'm getting there.
Now where was I? Oh, yes. I was saying that I would at
least half convince myself that I really was the only person who could
have written it. And that would start me down a very dangerous
path.
Prosecution: What are you talking about?
Defense: Once you start believing grandiose things like that about
yourself, you can't stop. It becomes an addiction: you keep on
convincing yourself of more of them. I -- we -- would be in
serious danger of turning into another Donald Trump.
Prosecution: What ... oh. I think I see where you're going with
this.
Defense: Good; that means you're not as stupid as you look. You
remember, it was part of his standard stump speech. He'd do his
bad imitation of a hellfire-and-brimstone preacher, except he wasn't
talking about the hereafter, he was talking about how awful everything
supposedly was right now. And then he'd finish that riff with
these five words: "Only I can fix it."
Prosecution: [nods]
Defense: Which would have been fine, I guess; it was great theater
... for a certain sort of audience. But then he had to go and
win the damn thing. So then everybody was watching him, to
see if he could deliver. And you know how that turned out.
So think about it. Do you really want us to end up like he
did? The laughingstock of the planet?
Prosecution: [remains silent]
Defense: I didn't think so.