[sticky entry] Sticky: Micro-mini self-intro

Sep. 16th, 2017 05:39 pm

My name is Thomas Harold Edelson.  Welcome to my journal.

To repeat the most important sentence from my profile:

Spiritually, I am some combination of Quaker, Taoist, and pagan.


It will never never never freeze in Carolina! The weather is always so nice. No, it will never never never freeze in Carolina; the clime is sublime, if you're made of ice!

I won't be able to leave the United States before Donald Trump is sworn in (groan, again) as president.  But I am taking concrete steps toward moving to some friendlier nation.

I have identified a top candidate destination, but I am not going to tell the world what it is, yet.  Better to wait until I know that I'll actually be able to go there.

It's a maddeningly slow process, the more so because I am also mildly under the weather.  I remain reasonably confident that I will be able to make it out before it's too late.

This journal entry is not about Thanksgiving Day.

Then what?

This entry will be my [initial] response [first in this journal, anyway] to the fact that Donald Trump will be inaugurated, on 2025-01-20 [and for the second time], as President of the United States.

My first, instinctive response to that fact: “It sucks.”

No second thoughts about that! But I do want to add more nuance: to name several different feelings that this catastrophic event has evoked in me.

  • Depression: check.  Predominant during the first couple of weeks.

  • Despair: no.

  • Anger: surprisingly little.

  • Sadness: successor to depression (but not with a sharp transition).

  • Grief: (nuanced) successor to sadness.

  • Determination: not a successor to grief, an admixture with it.

The determination was triggered as I began to get serious with the question, “What shall I actually do about this [insert impolite word]?”  It tends to counteract what's left of the depression.

I have made real progress toward answering the “What shall I do?”question.  But nothing ready to be posted in this journal, yet.

"How to Decide What to Do" is the title of a recently-added page
of my “site” at The Well, located
at

https://people.well.com/user/edelsont/philosophy/01-intro.html

All that's there, so far, is the “Introduction”
… which is full of promises of what is to come.

I have unexpectedly developed a case of writer's block: I
haven't written even a line, yet, of the (or any) following
segment.

I do have a possible inkling as to why.  I was operating
under an assumption about what writing this “book” would
entail.  To wit, that it would require me to be completely
“open” about my inner, emotional life: to be prepared to
lay bare any relevant detail about my fears, desires, or any sort
of feelings.

And I didn't feel able (or, perhaps more accurately, willing)
to do that.  I still don't.

However, this doesn't necessarily mean that the project is
doomed.  I have a faint glimmering of an approach that would
allow me to write the thing, without doing the [emotional] Full
Monty to quite that degree.

It would not be exactly the same book, but I think maybe I could
accomplish my central goal.  I guess you — and I!
— will have to wait and see whether this works out.

I apologize for any inconvenience that this may cause.




 

My last posting was about my falling down.  This one is
about another kind of opportunity for spiritual growth: let's watch
a video, and then discuss it, right here in the comments to this
journal entry.

First of all, the video.  Here's the link which will let
you watch it:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQqY5LsGee8

The title of the video is:

Sece Foster: How To Drop In To Presence and Stay
Heart-Centered

… and it's from a YouTube channel called “The Power of
Attunement.”

Thanks to Beckie for sending me the link in the first
place.  I seized upon it as a great discussion starter.

The next move is yours.  Take a look at the video, and
then tell us what it brings to mind for you.
 

My last two journal entries were both about things I recently
posted at my “site”on The Well.  This one isn't.

This is to let you know about a couple of mishaps I've had lately: I fell down.  Twice.

The first time, I was a on a ladder in my living room, and then a twinge caused me to lose my balance, and then I was lying on the floor, on my side.  I decided not to use that ladder
again.  And I went on about my life, more or less normally, for two weeks.

Yesterday, I fell down again.  The culprit this time was some slippery outdoor stairs.  I ended up in a remarkably similar position—lying on my side—only on wet ground.

I took more drastic action this time: was seen at the doctor's office the same day.  Got X-rayed, confirmed an absence of any fractures, not even the “hairline” kind.  Wheels
were set in motion to get me into physical therapy.

This didn't come out of nowhere: a month and a half ago, I told my doctor about an increase in lower back pain.  What I didn't understand, then, was that such an increase is often gradual … until it isn't.  One day, you try a movement you've done before, but this time, the muscles (joints, whatever) can't handle it.  So: twinge of pain, spasm, fall down go boom.

No physical therapist yet, but I will claim already to have heightened powers of observation, with early indications that this may help the situation going forward.

This is what is known as a growth opportunity.
 

At our last meeting, I let you know that there was something new
posted on my “site” at The Well: a short piece called
“Why Do Anything?”  And now there's another new
document there; this one's called “How to Decide What to
Do.”

More precisely, all that's newly available is the first little
piece of “How to Decide What to Do”: its
Introduction.

As you might expect from the titles, telling the
reader how to decide what to do is a bigger
undertaking than just explaining why one ought
to do anything at all.  (It might even amount to a whole
book.)  That's why I decided to post it in pieces, rather
than make you wait until I've completed the whole thing.

Now here's the part where I tell you where to go.  This
link

https://people.well.com/user/edelsont/philosophy/phil-index.html

will take you to my newly expanded “index” of
philosophical writings.  From there, one more click will
procure you the Introduction.

You remember that I have a "home page" at The Well,
right?  Just in case the URL is not at your fingertips, here
it is:

https://people.well.com/user/edelsont/index.html

There've been some changes there.

There's a whole new Category, called "Philosophy".

And there's more!  Therein, you will find a file, in PDF
format, titled "Why Do Anything?".

And what's that about?  It's about a page long.

Oh, you meant "What is its subject matter?"  Well, see
now, its title is ambiguous.  If you read it quite literally,
you might expect the subject matter to be something like "What
counts as a good reason for doing anything?"  (Well, you might
expect that if you had a philosophy degree.)

Okay, so what's the other meaning for the title "Why Do
Anything?"  That would be something like
"Why do we do anything?"

But I'm not going to recap the whole content here; this is only
a teaser.  Its purpose is to motivate you to go read the PDF
file itself.  If you want to jump directly to it, here's a
link for that:

https://people.well.com/user/edelsont/philosophy/why-do-anything.pdf

Poor me

Dec. 22nd, 2023 04:37 pm
I am sorry for myself because my computer is broken.
Actually only the keyboard is broken, but until the new one arrives, it amounts to the same thing.

I am typing this on an iPad. Please don’t hold that against me.

Well, my last journal entry didn't succeed in its purpose.  After pondering, I think I know why: it was a mistake to present it to you as a riddle.

So here you go: same basic idea, presented in a different format.

Bob Hope: Hey, you sing a little.  Let me ask you a question: what do you think of the Trump campaign's pick for its official song?

Bing Crosby: Sorry, I hadn't heard about it.  What was their choice?

Hope: "Send Lawyers, Guns, and Money."

Crosby: Ooh ... catchy title!  Who wrote it?

So, what did y'all think of the Trump campaign's choice of a new theme song?  Me, I thought it fit real good.

It's been nearly a month since I returned from The Trip.  I'm ready to write about something else.


How about the end of an era?  Specifically, the 25-year era of Netflix DVDs.


As you may have heard, Netflix is shutting down that part of their business.   This coming Friday, 09-29, they will ship their last DVDs.  After that, the streaming service will be the only way to get your Netflix on.


I'm one of the (only one million) last holdouts: I've kept my DVD service going until the end.  It's a sad occasion for me.  I realized weeks ago that I felt the need to grieve it in some way, and I've devised a small ritual that will be my way of doing that.


You may scoff, not thinking such an event to be a big enough deal to grieve about.  I'll postpone saying why I'm doing it anyway.  First let me tell you about the ritual itself.


Background: Netflix has also announced that for any single subscriber, the last DVD that one receives need not be returned: you get to keep it.  This was the springboard for my plan: my ritual will be watching that last DVD.


Or actually, the ritual began with choosing that last DVD.  This became a non-trivial process; I considered many candidates.


It needed to be something I would want to watch more than once.  To be sure of that, it should probably be something I've seen before.


But there was another criterion, specific to the ritual per se.  To set the right tone, it needed to be a sad movie.  (Sad, not depressing.  To me, these words are very far from meaning the same thing.  If something is sad, then it isn't depressing.)


I chose Dead Man (1995), directed by Jim Jarmusch, with Johnny Depp in the title role.  (Okay, clarification: his character is not really dead, not in our white-people sense ... until the very end.)  If you're not familiar with this film, there's a pretty good plot summary at https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dead_Man.


Reading about the movie--or, better yet, seeing it--should give you some idea of the kind of "sad" I had in mind.  In turn, this hints at why I'm not perturbed by the scoffer's saying that the end of the Netflix DVD era is not a big enough deal to grieve about.


You see, as the idea took shape, I realized that I would not be grieving only the DVD business.  To some extent, yes, but it would also stand in for other things that, in my universe, need grieving.


By the way, I'm pretty sure that this idea (that a ritual can be explicitly about one thing, but also about other things, which may not be named out loud) is nothing new; it might even be quite familiar.  To those in the ritual biz, anyway.


I don't even think that I could explicitly name all the things that I feel the need to grieve about.  But here's a hint ....


Nothing lasts forever.

Home is the wanderer from my journey to Olympia, and other points in the Pacific Northwest.  But those "other points" did not include Olympic National Park -- nor Victoria, BC -- as I had said they might.


Let me tell you a little more about the Empire Builder, the train(s) that I took from Chicago to Seattle, and from Portland back to Chicago.


My friend Beckie asked me how many times the train was refueled, in the course of that long journey.  The answer is three.  From west to east, those are:


- Spokane, WA


- Havre, MT


- Minot, ND


Spokane is also the location where -- westbound -- one train splits into two, and -- eastbound -- two trains combine into one.


Anything else y'all would like to know?

 

 Yes, I’ve been sheltering in place since Friday 08-11, and won’t be leaving here until Monday (08-21): a total of ten nights.

And the predicted high temperature here, today, is still higher than the one for Marshall, NC.  Unlike the first five days, though, by now it’s only a little higher.  I’m glad of that — though, when I was planning the trip, I was expecting that Olympia would be cooler.


Something else I was expecting, or at least hoping, about this trip (though I’m pretty sure I haven’t said so, here on DW, before): that I would have the opportunity for a far-reaching, informative conversation with someone from the Olympia meeting of the Religious Society of Friends (in other words, one of the local Quakers).  (I don’t mean someone in particular — just someone.)


I am happy to report that this wish, unlike the one about the weather, did come true.  But not at all in the way that I expected it would.  How it actually came about is quite a story.

 

 You may have noticed that the previous entry didn’t look like most of my others.  That’s because the last entry was created on my iPad, while most are created on a desktop computer.

I’m on the iPad now.  This is simply a test of a new method; I hope that this will look more like the “regular” ones.

 

 … though my temporary abode is, more precisely, in Lacey, WA.

My planning and execution of this trip have not been, shall I say, error-free.   But not all the errors are mine, and I’m not beating myself up over the ones that are.

 I have  a rental car during this longest stay of the overall trip.   But I’m not sure that I’ll take it very far out of town.   Maybe this phase will be more of “retreat” than a classical “vacation”.

I am having insights.   For example: I have long known that strangers talk to one another at table in Amtrak dining cars, to an extent quite remarkable, considering how little Americans do that in most settings.   But on this trip, I think I have deepened my understanding as to how this almost magical thing happens while riding the rails.

Long-distance train travel, even with a roomette, requires a good deal of adaptation: how to do very ordinary activities in very limited space.   However, this seems to be the sort of challenge that I can enjoy meeting.

I hope y’all are having a good time on your own journeys (physical or otherwise).

I'm going on a trip.  The primary destination will be Olympia, Washington.  I expect to be there a little over a week.

And yet, I will be away from home for most of August: not quite three weeks.  I expect to leave Marshall on Monday, 08-07, and get back on Sunday, 08-27.

Why Olympia?  The Pacific Northwest is usually a little bit cooler than where I live.  And I hope to visit Olympic National Park, and perhaps also make it to Victoria, British Columbia.

And why will it take so long to get from home to Olympia and back?  To me, that's not a bug, it's a feature.  You see, I'm a rail fan, and most of the miles will be covered by train.

More specifically, most of them will be on the Empire Builder.  That one train will take me from Chicago to Seattle.  And on return, it will take me from Portland (Oregon, of course) back to Chicago.

And the Empire Builder is the longest Amtrak route that I haven't traveled before.  So you could call it a bucket list thing.  Probably most people would think it eccentric to decide on that basis, but hey, it's a free country.  So far.

I really, really don't like summer.  Not in any of the places that I've lived since I left graduate school in 1972, at any rate.  All of those places have been in the Eastern time zone of the USA, and you will note that I now have completed fifty-one years of not liking summer.

What don't I like about it?  The weather, obviously.  The heat, and the humidity.  That's what you get in the eastern US.  Okay, bits of New England are partial exceptions, but still.

Would I be happier in a place like New Mexico, where it gets pretty hot but is always much less humid?  A few years back, I thought so.  I spent a non-trivial amount of time there, most recently in August of 2019, for the purpose of testing that hypothesis.  And what was my conclusion?

Strictly speaking, I suppose I would be happier there, weather-wise.  But not enough so.  I could conceivably still decide to move there, but, since that last trip, any real enthusiasm for the idea has pretty much evaporated.  Like summertime rain there: at times, you can see rain in the sky above you, but it doesn't reach the ground.

For that matter, my history of trying to escape from typical Eastern summers goes further back than that.  It was a big part of the motivation for the last move I actually did make: from the Raleigh area (in the region of North Carolina known as the Piedmont) to the Ashville area (in the western mountains of the same state).  It's the same story: I do like the summer weather here better than I did there, but not nearly enough so to make me glad when the summer begins.

In short, I really don't like summer.

It has come to my attention, however, that not everyone feels the same way.  There are even some, bless their strange little hearts, who enjoy what it's like in summer even in a place like Raleigh.

I invite you to tell us how you feel about summer weather.  About summers where you live, or — if so moved — about those in some other place you've been.

When you visit this here journal, if you really want the full experience, don't just check for new entries.  Scroll back a little, to see whether other recent entries have new or changed comments.

Case in point: look two entries ago, at " Holiday Newsletter, part 3".  This has collected three comments since it was posted on May 28.

And if you read those, you see my social network in action.

The first two are "anonymous," in the sense that Dreamwidth itself doesn't know who posted them.  Neither would a random reader (one who doesn't already know me).

The first comment, though, was not anonymous to me, because the commenter included her first name at the bottom of the text.  The second commenter didn't do that, so I didn't know who had left it; I guessed, but my guess turned out to be wrong.

Which brings us to the third comment, which isn't anonymous in any sense: I posted it, as a reply to the second.  Its main point: to ask Commenter 2 to identify oneself.

And today, having learned who that was, I further edited the third comment, thus "outing" her.

Exciting stuff, huh?  A reality show, you might say: learn more about not just me, but my friends and relatives too.

As you may have read, the former president, Donald Trump, has been indicted on charges related to illegal handling of classified documents.  (Or more precisely, secret, or restricted-access documents; some of them are not, technically, "classified.")

What's going to happen?  This is not one question, but many.  I will offer a possible answer to one of them.

Let's narrow the question.  Let's assume that the case will go to trial.  What sort of defense will Trump direct his lawyers to present?  I wouldn't be surprised if he told them to argue as follows:

  • Trump won the 2020 election.
  • Therefore, Trump remains rightfully the president.
  • Therefore, if the indictment says that Trump did something illegal on a particular date, Trump was president on that date.
  • So, even if Trump did each act that the indictment says he did, on the date that the indictment says he did it … none of those acts were illegal.  The president can legally do anything he chooses with any government document, "classified" or not.

I wouldn't be surprised if Trump insisted that his attorneys argue the case that way, because I think that such an argument would be entirely reasonable … to him.

What do you think?  Might this happen?  What would be the outcome if it did?

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